Chin up, you're beautiful.

yeah. confessions night.

i’ve been crying for days now and i say that one tree hill’s the reason. well yeah, partly. i missed watching this show, you know. i started watching OTH when i was thirteen, it was summer of 2008. 

DRAMA masyado na show, nag sige jud ako iyak before pa. i practically tortured myself back then. that was the first time i had my heart broken.

and then now, one tree hill is on its last season. last 13 episodes of the first show i loved. it’s not the same without peyton and lucas but i still do love this show. and now, after seeing lucas back on the show… i remembered how much i loved it.

i admit. it isn’t the only reason i’ve been crying.  it’s just that today i realized that my life hasn’t been the same since then. my life’s a mess. and as much as i want to be happy, i just can’t. ever since that summer… until now. and whenever i try to be happy or whenever i’m happy, something bad happens. I know God has better plans for me and I trust him, but right now I just want somebody to hold me tight and tell me everything’s gonna be okay.  

just when i thought you’re gonna be there for me, you left. just like that. ang dali lang ano? sakin mahirap. pero it’s okay, i’m used to it. people always leave (Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill). drama kaayo ko and sht, pero this is who i am. so.. i’m really sorry for being such a disappointment. i know why you left. it’s okay. :)